Am I Bigfoot?

While sitting in church the other day it dawned on me...I might be a loner my whole life. As I sat while we sang church hymns I looked around at all the people in the room, all these little girls with pretty hair and dime a dozen attitudes, I came to the realization that's just not me, and that's okay.  I am not skinny, I'm  socially weird when a guy is around that I think is semi-cute, I tend to think I could be a stand-comic but I can't deliver a punch line to save my life. I tend to think I look like Mindy Kaling if she lived in Utah her whole life.  But lets face it, the only relationship I have been in was all in my head, and the others, have been with celebrities, that I am sure if we ever were to  met we would be the best couple on the face of the earth.
 So was I just a sad case that was doomed to walk the earth alone like Bigfoot ? Doomed to wonder the world alone ? NO!  I mean if I did pull a Bigfoot it wouldn't be the worst thing, I would never have to shave,  (HUGE plus), and my lack of  the 'mysterious factor' would go up, so up that I would have people wondering if I even existed.  Maybe  people would make plaster castings of my flat Indian foot. But it still it raised the question,would I  give in to this mentality that I have been living with my whole life? That if I wasn't married or have had a serious relationship by the time I was 25 that I would grow old with a dog and a modest income, only ever being the 'favorite auntie'? (Which isn't bad thing)  What about all the other favorites I am missing out on- Favorite girlfriend, favorite snuggler, favorite person to hang out with? I want that too! Was I just a "Bigfoot" in training?
Here's the thing about me. I can't be a bitch to guys or the " hard to get girl" I hate playing games. If a guy is not into me I would want to know so I don't waste my time.  I am a I am not a younger twenty-something I am and older twenty-something and I am proud of that. I guess I am a hopeless romantic. Or I have watched "When Harry Met Sally" too much, but I know if I just stay true to who I am I'll find my Harry. That's one thing I wish I could tell younger me. Celebrate you everyday! because you are pretty great and who really wants to be like everyone else?

I don't know what the future holds for me. I hope that one day I can look back at these little blog posts, laugh and say "why did I ever think that?" but until then I am going to keep believing I am a stand up comic in front of hot guys. So if I do end up becoming "Bigfoot", wondering the world alone at least I'll be laughing.