There are a few things that I am sure of in this life...I know I am loved, I know I will be a great mom one day, and I know I will marry either Ryan Gosling or Matthew Gray Gubler.
Okay obliviously that last one is far fetched, know they are famous actors and my chances of marrying either one, let alone being in the same room as them are slim to none...but isn't it almost easier to believe that silly fantasy sometimes?
The other night my friend and I were going off about how, if our Hollywood crushes just saw us they would be hooked on us. Like we'd forget all of our insecurities, suddenly have this crazy confidence, and we wouldn't be intimidated by them at all. After about two hours talking about how much we love our celeb crushes we started talking about guys we actually know and that we think are cute, and my attitude began to shift and I sunk into my shell and began to think "I could never get that guy... that I do actually know. and he is real and we are always in the same room together." So why I am so willing to believe that Ryan Gosling would fall in love with me just by looking at me, but I don't believe that this guy that is really awesome and likes to hang out with me, wouldn't.
The only answer that I came up with was " it's always easier to believe something you know probably won't happen."
I need to stop believing that. I choose to change that saying to, "it's always easier to believe in me," plain and simple. The result of that statement is... more confidence, love and happiness, because that is the only natural order of things if you believe in yourself. I know it doesn't mean that when the universe plays pranks on me it'll be any less embarrassing or scary, but it'll be easier because I believe in me. What normal guy wouldn't want a girl who has a happy disposition? And if I do truly believe in me, whose to say if I run into MGG or Ryan they won't fall in love with me;)
